Holy shit. I attempted to do a visual diary journey, but this is way better than what I had. I'm going to shorten my article and just link this because it's so comprehensive.
I am utterly fascinated that your nihilism was "cured," but DMT did quite the opposite to me. It in fact instilled in me the great sense of nihilism, despondence, and intense feelings of finding myself stuck in the inescapable incarnation cycle. A fellow psychonaut (are we even saying that anymore) told me "DMT shows you what you need to see." Do you agree with that statement?
I am absolutely enthralled with your writeup of the death experience. I guess I never thought of it as hell until now, but that's quite a fitting term. I think you captured my soul perfectly when you decided to go to the castle: I thought, Oh Helllllll no. And because of that reaction, I decided I should probably go.
I appreciate your in-depth writeup. I'm hoping more mainstream attention can be drawn to this, through academic and experiential efforts.